Monday, November 16, 2015

Violence in Video Games, TV shows and Movies

I'm Reading about this topic in Social Psychology and I decided I wanted to put my opinion into words.
Violent video games do not create violence because violent video games do not create aggression. In order for a person to be violent, they must express aggression. Video games can influence a person's actions, feelings or behavior, but only will do so in a violent situation when the person being influenced was already predisposed to violent or aggressive behavior. This is a case where correlation does not completely equal causation. This third element of aggression has to be a part of the equation.

I have never been and will probably never be a violent person. And yet, I enjoy violent video games. I enjoy these video games without enjoying violence because I was taught to have an serious and sensitive attitude about real violence. Violence in video games or on tv (like porn and sexualization) in media can desensitize a person, but I believe that people can also be brought up to have a resistance to desensitization by making decisions about what you choose to watch or play and knowing when things go too far. There are films and even some video games which sometimes it is necessary to stop and think: "This is really awful". By making the decision to comment in your mind, you are consciously disassociating yourself, or reality, from that character, or fictional universe. Sometimes, it might end with the person choosing to not play that game or watch that show anymore, and that is good. It is important to put yourself and your own boundaries first; regardless of what everyone else does. Everyone has different personal boundaries from everyone else. In the example of "Grand Theft Auto", being able to see the game as satire is important. This is especially important in cases of younger people who still need to be taught right from wrong. It is important to accept that certain games or films or shows, for sure, should only be played or watched by people who are not old or mature enough to understand that difference and make that disassociation.

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

The Shifting Tides of Life



Please don’t be afraid to cry
Sigh, my darling, sigh
Into your arms I roll
Carry me away from home
Carry me through the hills and mountainsides
Carry me over streams and rocks

Please pray and cry and sing
Your heart needs warmth again

Forgive yourself, my dear
You’re bright as a star in the night
Let yourself be lifted light.
For fear does not but hold you
Let it wash over you like rain,
Cleaning the air for your lungs to breathe.

Please pray and cry and sing
You deserve the warmth of light
For your heart will burn bright
Under the starry, navy night

Please don’t be afraid to sigh
Your life has just begun
And all your wishes too
Are beginning to come true
Those dreams you dared to dream,
And the songs you dared to sing,
And secrets your heart always kept,
Have not been exploited yet

Trust yourself, my dear
Your soul shines bright and sweet
Your loyalty, complete
Don’t doubt because of fear
Let your might strike down your obstacles
For your gentle heart will remain,
And life a loving, trying game.

So pray, and cry and sing
And be what God meant for you to be
A star in the sky, to guide and to strive
with Hope, Faith, and Love combined

Breathe in the Autumn Air and start again

While life as I knew it was fleeting
Faster faster than ever before
Life like leaves, spin to the ground
Orange and yellow and red with promise; purpose

With my two feet on the ground,
Let me go nowhere but up,
Let me climb into your canopy
And sing with your winged inhabitants

Please embrace me, sun and sky;
Lift me up into life with your branches.
I need your roots in me now
For my feet will be firmly planted

Let me grow

Thursday, October 8, 2015

My college dorm mini-fridge (and it's artistic ways)

Hello! One of the first things my parents bought me when I got to college was a box of poetic cat magnets. On one side I was like: "Uh, but, I don't.. need this..?" And another: "Okay! It's cool. I'll take it!"
At the end of the first week, as I am trying to remain calm and settling in and learning to trust in myself that I could be an independent adult, I decided to open up the box.
Now, maybe this will come as a surprise to you, but some of the first magnets I saw inspired a sudden but definite inspiration that told me I must make a smutty pornographic poem. No judgements. Cats are related to intimacy, and intimacy itself can then be related to sex. I hope you trust I'm not some animal werido.
... o_o But anyway!


After I created my lovely pornographic poem, which to be true, I am indeed proud of, I also thought to myself, "I miss my cats. It would be a crime for me to have a poem about a sensual encounter with your lover and yet forget about creating one dedicated to actual cats." And so I created that. :)
 I regret not being able to get a better picture of this one, and yet, I have just decided this is how it is going to be. I struggle all the time with getting clear photos on my phone. My hands just shake when I focus too hard! Anyway, I took a million and this is what you shall have.
Now, I don't know whether it was my inner-perfectionism kicking in, or whether I was just bored, or even that I have some kind of inner OCD that has to be fulfilled by something pointless, but after I created those poems, I had all these extra words and stuff that I felt needed a place. I didn't want to leave any one thing out. This is what I came up with...

This just about sums up life right now

Some stuff that just popped into my head. pt 1

Some stuff that just popped into my head. pt 2

 
And then there's this bullshit. Reminds me of how your brain works when you're not quite awake yet and not quite asleep, and you basically just say stuff that doesn't mean what you think it does. I remember a time where I thought for sure I was asking my mom what time it was (as she tells me to wake up) and a moment later once I have woken up more, I realized that I said something closer to... "What's half of 64?" Just gibberish.

 Anyways, Hope you enjoyed!

~Rosem <3

Oh PS:

Funny story.. I've had those poems up on my mini-fridge since the first week of college. My roommate doesn't seem to mind. She even said she liked it! Haha. But yeah, so I've just had this lovely, pornographic poem made out of cat magnets on my fridge... through my RA coming to my dorm and other people on our floor visiting.
Yeah, I'm not moving it. That's its new home. Officially
Suck it, Strangers! This is my room!

PPS: as of a mid-october, I tore it down. Time for new poetic inspiration.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Monogamy, Polyamory and Relationships

I will more than likely offend some people with this topic choice, but I feel I need to explain my view of relationships and monogamy. Recently, I have stumbled across some points of view, on the internet, or otherwise that basically argue that polyamory is healthier than monogamy. Here's the thing, it is natural to like multiple people, have crushes on multiple people, and in some cases, perhaps (although I have not experienced it myself) love more than one person. But when you feel this way, ask yourself: Do you love them, or do you fancy them? Do you even know them? Or are they just intriguing to you right now? I have come to realize that love and romance are different things. Often romance begins it all, and can turn into love, but once you have that love, you merely have to look at that person and you know the difference. It is just there. Just because something appears natural doesn't make it a better decision. Intuitions can be deceptive. Trust what you believe in. Trust love, peace, kindness, respect, humility; how those traits cause you to act; or how those traits make you feel. These are the actions and reactions that I believe a person should use as examples for how to grow in life into a better person.

Healthy relationship, indeed are more complicated than we are taught in media growing up, but what it really gets down to is this.. A healthy relationship involves a commitment to a person you love as well as a commitment to yourself. A committed relationship can become unhealthy if a person forgets to take care of themselves, feels unable to take care of themselves, or ceases or lessens having their own time with their own friends doing something that they love, whether their partner shares that interest or not. In a committed relationship, people need to trust each other and have that freedom in order to be healthy and happy, while still having open communication about the adventures they had with their friends on their own time.

So, how does this relate to polyamory? The argument I have heard is that it is healthier to pursue all your romantic relationships. Obviously choosing to be polyamorous or not is a lifestyle choice that is not for everyone, but as someone who knows it is not for me and chooses to be monogamous, I feel compelled to express that I do not believe it is healthier to be polyamorous. I would even argue the opposite, that it can be healthier to be monogamous. Admittedly, and because I have more than one friend who is polyamorous, I will say this is merely because I was brought up an orthodox christian and through that, I believe that commitment to your single partner is very important.

So my argument is this; I believe that one can have a very healthy relationship with only one partner. Even forever. It is natural to have crushes on other people throughout life. But it is your choice to act on those feelings or not which decides what kind of person you are. I see people fall apart, and when people go through divorces, it truly saddens me. I believe that if you are open-hearted and open-minded and honest with your partner from the beginning, that this doesn't need to happen. Divorce and relationships are a difficult topic; one I have yet to adapt to understanding with clarity and no bias.

But what I do know and understand is this... It is never right to make your spouse your enemy. If you have a personality conflict, a couple should address it before you decide to get married. When you get married, have a mind of clarity, not lust or passion. Life should be lived with peace. People should be gentle with every little thing in their life, because being gentle is what gives life, and love and growth and nurturing. This is good, and I believe this is attainable through humbling yourself, admitting your mistakes, talking about them, and continuing to love and forgive.

This was a Triumph

I'm making a note here....
Huge success! It's hard to over-state my satisfaction.
I made it! Through the thicks and thins of high school, I made it. Now, I am at WWU (Go Vikings!) And I think things are going well.

At first, it was very overwhelming. Everything was new, all these events were planned. People were going to dances, painting bricks, going to go see the reptile man. Okay, that one was cool. I did go to that one. And in all actuality, I had planned to go paint a brick, but uhh... Too late I guess. Time got the best of me. I had been too busy being an introverted hermit, in a sense, but it was good for me. I made it through my first week at college without dying. Okay, so I did fall apart a few times. But my computer got malware right after I finally got it to connect to the internet. It was BAD. Really bad. There were things.. everywhere and.. Okay, you know what. I fixed it, so it's all good now. *whew* All the while, I updated to windows 10. Yay! I like it :) It feels more studious and usable. Less artsy and unusable (sorry windows 8.1)
So where was I, ah yes. I made it. At first it was really freaky because I was still getting used to it being a different kind of home. But there were people running here and there wanting to make friends and I just had to shut myself away for a while. But it's all good now. I have made more than a couple friends, by some miracle. Well, first off, my lovely roommate is on top. Reconnecting with old friends from high school that I missed so so much last year, and yesterday, I made 3 new friends. :) I don't know how close they will be to me, but they are nice, and they are nerds, so hopefully I am able to influence them in some way.
Speaking of reconnecting. Wow! I skyped with a guy I met 3 years ago, with whom I had lost contact. It's great to reconnect! I think one of the things I hate is losing connection with old friends. That just gets me. People are important to me. Everyone is their own person, and I love each of them for their own special reasons. One of the friends I have had the pleasure of reconnecting with is my friend Quintin. He makes me so happy! He took me on one of his infamously long hikes (it was long) and we fangirl/boyed together about flowers and trees. Booyah! He is just a lot of fun to be around, and he is so artistic. :)
So... things.. I brought 4 knitting projects, around 5 magic the gathering decks, and my beloved orchid. Bringing a plant was a definite must because it gives me another living being to take care of and keep me grounded. Things have been busy I guess. I went to the school's Acapella club meeting. That was a lot of fun, and I met a guy from the magic the gathering club at lunch yesterday who insists I attend the meeting on thursday evening. Otherwise, it's books and reading. Not too bad for a first quarter. Although, I suspect they intentionally made it easier because we're freshmen. My dear boyfriend has been having a hard time with classes already and he started yesterday. I hear one professor was picking on him, and the other expects him to know how to create a working phone ap by tomorrow. Yikes! I send him encouragement, best wishes, my love and a great big hug <3 Love you honey! <3

On some other kind of topic, I wanted to document that I want to put my words out there more often. So, I decided that I am going to post completed knitting projects, poems, or any other interesting things I might have to say more often. Now that I have put it into writing, I can't back down.

Talk to you later!

Rosem

Sunday, January 11, 2015

In which I share a few of my knitting Projects

Bubble-Gum Pink Striped Scarf 
This scarf I knit for my boyfriend's mother. The pink reminded me of her, and the yard is so soft. This is one of my best creations I think. Rogue project (as I like to call it) meaning I did not follow a pattern. Basically, I made one up. This scarf is just entirely knit stitch.

Simple Scarf
This isn't a great picture, but I knit this scarf quite a while ago for my grandmother. I call it 'simple' because I used one ball of yarn which alternates its colors itself. Again, rogue, and simple knit stitch. 

Blue Rib Loop-scarf
I knit this scarf with single rib on a circular needle. Although it is a rogue project, it had a slightly more complicated concept. This one was just for me. 

Simple Phone Case
Don't copy this one. Seriously. You can glean inspiration, but don't copy. I used the same simple yarn as for the scarf for my grandmother, but here I used a smaller-sized needle. I was experimenting with how little needles feel and look. There were a lot of things wrong with this project. It's pretty much pulverized now, but I am also considering making another, better one.
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Other things I have made include 2 pairs of legwarmers. Neither turned out great. One of them I think I should just unravel actually XD and maybe save the yarn for something else. It was a simple knit stitch with sloppy workmanship. Very old. Perhaps my first completed project. The second pair, I was optimistic about. I used double rib stitch at the ends, but I did not measure well because, again, rogue.

My current knitting goal is to do more with patterns. I recently finished another scarf which did in fact follow a pattern. 

I am currently working on a shall which follows a pattern, and a scarf which was supposed to follow a pattern but didn't go well because I didn't plan well with yarns and such. I also have a pattern and the yarn for it set aside for socks. Been too afraid to touch that double-pointed needle stuff as of now, but I am eagerly planning to work up to it.
Currently in the mood to keep a look-out for cheap yarn and buying it as well as buying yarn specifically correct for specific patterns. YAHh!

Well, that's my knitting story. 

Saturday, January 3, 2015

The Natural and Supernatural

I woke up today having had a brilliantly creative and vivid dream, and got into a conversation with my parents about science fiction. We recalled all the times in history where some smart person thought up some smart thing that ended up becoming reality. Ray Bradbury is one among many science fiction authors and artists who's fantasy became reality in many ways. The Jetsons and Star Trek are also examples of how things became more real than we may have thought possible. So why is it that this happens? Many will just conclude that life is full of coincidence. Although it is true not all science fiction or fantasy things are realistic or will ever be, some of them come pretty darn close. So close even, that it is scary. I think that this has to do with a fundamental piece of human nature, one that many of us overlook. Studies show that something from 60 to 90% of the time, our intuition is right. Perhaps its time we get out of our heads and start living in our hearts.

The Natural

We humans live in a busy world, and there is a lot of us in it. Sometimes we don't realize that we only need to step back and listen to ourselves, turn off the noise in our head, dismiss unwanted feelings or thoughts, and truly relax. Another thing about us humans is that we really want to organize. We organize our thoughts, our feelings, what we see, what we learn, and what we have. Organizing itself truly is a good thing. It is how our brains are wired, and it is entirely normal. There is an aspect of organizing, however, which causes a disconnect from our heads and our hearts (our true being) and that is the thought of categorizing black and white, right and wrong, yes and no, good and bad. As humans, it is oh yes so much easier to just put things into a little imaginary box with a specific label, and leave it there. But it isn't always right, and it isn't always good. People like to think  that only crazy people believe in the supernatural and that only sane people believe in science. If you are sane that you only believe in what you know and don't go fishing for fantasy to be real. These are all examples of select perspective and black/white organizing.
What is crazy about that is that we don't really even know what we know. Why do we know what we know? Because someone told us. Who told us? Other people. And other people tell us a lot of things. Do we believe the people who firmly believe there are aliens? So what makes us so eager to believe everything we hear in the news? How about the people who teach us in school? Think about it, those teachers, they aren't teaching what they know, they are teaching what they were taught to teach us. Sure, I sound like a crazy conspiracy theorist. You can think that. But I also have a good point. We can not, as human beings, just listen to every little thing people tell us. The only way to truly be a healthy, helpful and honest person is to be critical of everything in life. Not negative, but thoughtful. It is never right to take everything for granted. People need to learn to teach themselves, investigate things from history until now because what may seem like the truth is likely only the most heard, and what may seem like the majority of what people are teaching may have actually just been a minority of 'crazy' people centuries and centuries ago. The people who are the biggest fanatics are the people who end up spreading more of the words, more of the ideas, and more of the thoughts. They also tend to be the people who aren't as stable, aren't as open-minded, nor as intelligent or necessarily right.

Take a moment to think about what kind of things comes of this kind of thinking.. segregation.. prejudice.. hatred.. the American civil rights movement.. the holocaust.

So let's be real, the saving grace of our society is fiction, books, television, stories; Because those are the things that inspire people to be open-minded about life and to not take things for granted. Religion can be among those things.

The Supernatural

This topic is always difficult for me to discuss, especially written down or put into words, but it also happens to be one of the most important subjects to me personally. Let me begin with this, I believe in miracles. I believe, even, that everyone has some kind of miracle happen in their life; from one degree to another. Many of us are so wrapped up in our heads that we fail to see them. Perhaps when we do see them we attribute them to luck, chance or skill. Many people are turned away from religion and can not feel comfortable in any way expressing a religious quality being in their life. This, although sad, is understandable to me. Many Christians and other religious people alike have come to a conclusion that their God only speaks to them. Even those religions who share the same God. This is not only close-minded, but selfish and silly. Yes, I am a Christian, I believe in the bible, but there are so many other important historical, and religions documents and people who were spoken to by God who were not christian. Hello. I'm sorry. I bursted your bubble didn't I. Well, let me just continue.

In my (the orthodox) religion we have a saint, Saint George who was told to have slayed a dragon which was being routinely fed young virgins by the pagans as a sacrifice. In our religion we believe this to be a true recollection of history. Another saint wrote about the Phoenix bird without the name "phoenix" but merely by describing how wonderful God's creatures are and that there was a bird who would live a long long time and fly south to the dessert to sacrifice itself in bursts of flames to nourish its eggs. Humans are humans. He certainly could have been misinformed, but in the context, it doesn't appear so. In Arizona at a elevation just slightly lower than Mt. Rainier in Washington, my father stumbled upon fossilized seashells in the rocks when he lived there. In Greek mythology as well as the bible there places which talked about a giant flood which covered the earth. In Southern Oregon at "The Vortex" there is an inexplicable disturbance in an area where there is an old cabin at which the way light reflects off of things is altered, making them seem taller or shorter than they actually are. I have been there, and it's not a hoax. There is no real way it could be. They told us that the local native Americans would always avoid that place and no animal has ever been seen within the borders of that area. I pondered whether it had to do with some kind of magnetism under the ground because of the large quantity of magnetized soil and past local gold deposits in the area. Certainly some things can be explained by science, and it is natural for us humans to search for a definable meaning, but that also doesn't mean that all things that have a reason have a scientific one. It is true that I am certainly not a completely reliable source, and that may turn people away from this article as it is, but I wanted to share my belief in the possibility of a multitude of supernatural things being or having been real. I believe in miracles, I believe in angels, and I believe in the possibility of seemingly supernatural animals and creatures having been real in the past. I am not a fanatic. I think it is important not to be a fanatic about things like this, but to be open-minded and skeptical at the same time.