Saturday, September 13, 2014

Life is a Video game

Life up to this point was just the Tutorial. We were shown how to do things, and where to find that option in a menu, what button was which. But now, once we graduate from high school, it's not game over, It's a re-play, or rather, a new-play. The time comes where we have to quit the tutorial and try everything ourselves, for ourselves, by ourselves. We finally click the "New Game" button. It's a scary sense of excitement, but then we're in the real world. We have nothing, --or close to nothing-- and we have to build up from the small items we have in order to have what we want or to reach our goal. We have to go on quests in order to get money in order to buy items. We have to work; farm, fight, study, learn... in order to get anything. And so the adventure begins. Life, is a video game, my friends. And once you graduate, you have just begun the true adventure.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Transition to growing up

I have these goals, right; to just create, in any and every way I can, but in growing up, I am so afraid of losing what I already have. My cat, my boyfriend, my high school friends.  I love all these so much. They define my life, my brain. People always say "You find your real love in college.  You find yourself. You find your happiness and the real good memories", but I feel like I have already found that. Sure there is more great joy to come but I don't want to lose what I have. I don't want life to be replaced by some fake.. identity. My cat is my angel, My boyfriend is my love. The things I surround myself with define me and I'm sure similar things will always be there. I just don't get how things could get so much better, or more perfect. What makes you think I haven't already found the love of my life? Because you were still finding yourself when you were my age? Sure, there is more to find. I am excited to learn more about myself and what I love and what is important to me. It's just that, the connections I have define who I am. If I lose them, will I lose myself?