It is so hard to be a happy Christian. I spend too much time being afraid of offending or disappointing other Christians. It is so hard to keep a connection with God when expressing your religion puts others around you who aren't Christian in discomfort, because they are used to Christians judging them and making them feel bad. Christians are used to Christians judging them and making them feel bad. This is a fallen world but I am just so sick of other Christian's petty opinions trying to pulling us away from our own faith. Why can't I be a Christian? I want to be a Christian. I can't say that anymore without feeling like I am saying I want to be a nazi. The world is falling apart. I haven't been to church in 2-3 weeks and I could have. It seems like other people around me don't want to make an effort to go anymore. Some churches are so peaceful in a way you can't find anywhere else. And sometimes the people ruin it. By.. preaching the wrong thing or spending time gossiping and judging. It's everyone's favorite thing to talk about sins and what is worse than what. And it's the worst thing to talk about. The most devil-feasting. :/ especially in a cult, where people listen to anything you say. Like mindless beasts. If you have any power, every one else is weak and stupid. I guess that is something that makes God so amazing. He has so much power, but he doesn't force anyone to be mindless.