Sunday, June 24, 2012

Is being LGBT a sin?

Hello, I know this is a bitter and highly opinionated topic, but it has been bothering me a bit lately and I wish to share my thoughts on it.

So, although I am a Christian I still wonder why it is that most Christians don't accept gays? Even Christians who are very accepting people, generally just don't accept gays. Many or most consider being gay a sin. I would like to find evidence and information in the bible about why Christians believe that. The way I see it is that God is very loving, accepting and patient. He wants people to be with those they love. He does. And animals commonly show signs of non-straight behavior towards each other including sex with the same gender. Is it more than a natural instinct to reproduce? So, why should it be labeled 'bad'? Why should it be discriminated against when the same gender loves each other? Because they don't have the right body parts? That's on the outside. They weren't 'made' for each other, they weren't intended by God to be together? You can't force love. Real Love is from the soul. That has nothing to do with body parts. Then... if it's a sin, should someone be forced to 'overcome' it and marry the opposite gender when they truly love the same gender? When their heart tells them that? Is it a sin to follow your heart then? Can your heart lie to you? Or are you just saying that people can't find real love in the same gender? How do you know? You don't. You can't. If you are straight and have never found real love in the same gender, that doesn't mean that someone else can't. That's like saying Deserts don't exist because I live in a warm tree and mountainous climate and have never been to a desert myself or seen it with my own eyes.

On the other hand, God made male and female animals with male and female parts so they could mate and reproduce. But people were also made with a special kind of soul. They are more than just animals. But all animals and people are flawed. God's intention was to have man be for woman and woman for man, so is it a flaw for man to be for man and woman for woman?? Remember, people evolve. Things change and everything evolves. Even God changes his mind about things. The bible has many examples of this like Noah and the Arc or Comparing rules like the Sabbath from the Old Testament to the New and even a long time ago nobody talked about gays. There is hardly anything in the bible that mentions gay people. It's not relevant. So, why do people care so much? Why is it labeled 'good' or 'bad', a sin or not? People need to get over differences. People need to stop caring so much about everything. It's not essential to life to label everything and you humans will never satisfy your curiosity or comprehend everything you wish to. You are not meant to know everything and that is good. Shut up and be content! (in a way I am talking to myself as well)

So why am I still worried? Why does this bother me? God loves people. He has the patience and strength to love all people regardless of their sins and mistakes. He accepts them. That makes him so much greater than any human could be. Why do I care so much if it's good or bad to ship gays or enjoy their romances?? Probably because of society. Being around people who care too much makes you think, worry, and care too much. So, take a breather and stop thinking.

On a slightly different note, this doesn't really relate to gay rights. I do support gay rights because whether you accept it or not, there are gay people in this world and there always will be. Removing their rights to freedom of having the same rights as everyone else does not prevent them from being gay. They will still have their romance, boyfriends and girlfriends and they will still do what they do because frankly, they don't give a f*** what anyone else thinks. Depriving them of their natural rights as citizens is wrong.
I am a Christian and I strongly support the acceptance of differences and the freedom of expression. Don't try to change others. You CAN'T. It is not possible to force your opinions on others. Give up on the wars and the riots and the hating. It is a damn waste of your time and makes me sad. The end.

-Rosemary Sprig

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Lots of stuff—busy—time time time time time

The stress piles up. I don't know why. Maybe it shouldn't. That appears so.. Yet thinking leads to worrying. Time flies too quick. Remaining, always tired.. They say that I need to do this. They say they understand. "We're all busy." They repeat. They think all I do is play games. I'm a nerd. They all know. I joke around. That's what I do. Life sucks, so make things funny.. make others laugh. That's what I want. Almost none of them realize... I'm so much more than a gamer. A pony-lover... a simple nerd.

What I want and what I do:

What I do on a regular basis:
  • Read. It calms me. Adventures and stories have always been my true favorite things.
  • Draw. It makes me feel accomplished. The simple things to draw like ponies make me feel alive. I love colors. They vibrate in harmony.
  • Piano. I need more. I need to create music. I need to practice and learn. I want this.
  • Writing sheet music. Helping a friend and making my brain work. She has a tune and we're getting together to use my piano to write the piece on lined music paper.
  • Singing to songs. Hearing my voice. Practicing it. Strengthening it. It helps me feel the tune, the emotion, the music. It helps me hear the creation and connect.
  • Dancing to songs. I teach myself choreography. I know 4 songs by memory. As long as the tune is playing I can dance the whole thing. It helps me get active and get my whole body and being involved in creativity and expression.
  • Write poetry and blog
What I am starting to do, being influenced to do, and hope to get into:
  • Start voice acting for a friends cartoon web series that they hope to start.
  • Help prop making for my father's film studio. 
  • Help script writing for my father's film studio.
  • Help plot making and character development for my father's film studio.
  • Learn to use photoshop
  • Learn to write programs
  • Learn to use Blender-a program to create 3D animation
  • Learn to create websites
  • Continue to educate yourself on the pop-culture of the internet.
  • Learn to Film and Photograph for my father's film studio.
  • Learn HTML
  • Start Vlogging with a best friend
  • Record gaming and post to youtube channel
  • Practice typing/become a better typer

 As you can see, there is a LOT I do and wish to do with my time. A LOT I don't have time for, and a LOT I never have time for. This doesn't include all of the get-togethers I want to schedule with friends. There are a lot.
This has been going through my mind because people I've been a bit stressed and there are some people that thing could be directed at because they don't seem to get it.
For example, The (bsa) Venture Crew has been a very tough topic for me to think about lately. I'm definitely expected to contribute to the crew. I understand this. I understand that the crew can't function without lots of support and everyone doing their part. One thing I have always been horrible at is prioritizing. My problem is, I LOVE EVERYTHING, and I want to do EVERYTHING. I've been extremely stressed in the past. I've greatly considered quitting from the crew. I want to go on outings. That is another thing I want to do. Relating to crew, I want to:
  • Go camping with friends
  • Learn Scouting skills
  • Go to fun camps with friends
  • Learn how to raft or kayak or canoe or go backpacking etc..

These are things I want to do! The thing is, I am supposed to have a 'role'. A 'job'. If I could chose, I'd love to have the job as webmaster which I am currently listed as with my friends Brendan (who by the way is also a busy person) The thing is I would need to take and dedicate the time to learning how to create a website and doing so. I don't have the motivation to prioritize that so high. I have higher motivation to do things with people I'm close to and things that are closer in my comfort zone. I'm lazy. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only lazy human on his Earth. But because stating that does not support my cause and theme to this blog post, you should disregard it and continue reading what I have to say. I don't know when I will have time for all these things. Would you have time for all these things? Don't lie. No! Not even if you did completely stop playing Minecraft and Team Fortress 2 and watching Buffy and Dollhouse and Doctor Who and Eureka and Warehouse 13 and Merlin. And By the way, 4 of those 6 shows I have caught up to where they are still being created and airing. So, I only watch episodes of Dollhouse or Buffy every day not including days like today in which no episodes of anything were watched and no games of any kind were played and partially because I spent a large amount of my time writing this blog post.
Now, if you have a problem with my logic being illogical, then go leave because you obviously have no true perception of how the world really works and I would highly recommend taking a chill pill and sitting on some comfy couch with a good fiction book and a cup of tea to help you begin fixing this mistake in thinking that you have encountered.

Good-bye for now!


Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Me, myself and I

Talking about myself and my strengths in life make me feel selfish and arrogant, however, given that my self-confidence level is way down lately, I hope you don't mind if I talk about myself.

In a way, I am incredibly good at pretending that I know things. Even the things I am most passionate about, to be honest, I don't know a lot about. —Other than my faith in God, these things tied are: Valve Games and Joss Whedon movies/shows/productions.— Everyone naturally tries to be accepted in life in someway. I've caught myself pretending to know all about the things I'm into. Well, I don't know more than the obvious. What I'm trying to say is, I don't look things up. My first excuse is that I just don't remember things anyway, which is partly true. There are a lot of things I don't remember. Another is that I love so many different things that I never find time to study merely one of them. In the same way that I am not afraid of snakes, spiders, bats, the dark, needles, blood, organs, ghosts etc..., There isn't a lot I dislike doing. I love horror, comedy, romance, playing sports (for fun, with friends), playing video games, playing board games, talking, writing, reading, singing, drawing, playing the piano, writing music, writing poetry, making videos, taking pictures... etc.

But I am shy. And loud. One of my friends calls me a classic introvert. I am in a way, but I am an extrovert as well. I grew up an only child with close parents. I had the same circle of friends, and we never moved much. I was always shy. I was always scared of people. I still am. To me, I find it exhausting trying to deal being with large groups of people. Even more than 4, even if they are all my friends. Ridiculously, it's overwhelming. People stress me out, but it's not like that. As long as I know them. As long as I am close to any or most of any number of people, I can be as crazy or outgoing as ever, and that's fine. Afterwards I feel relieved and tired. I think some of you may know what I mean.

On another note, out of people I see or meet, I've always felt like I had more in common and closer connections to the older kids. For the longest time, I couldn't ever be close with them. They were always older and there was always something preventing them from accepting me without labels or expectations. I've never really been an understandable character anyway, not even to myself. Now that I get older, I see everyone else around me grow up, and as people have told me, and I have noticed, I am way more mentally ahead of some of them. I would love to make friends with the Juniors and Seniors. I would die to have coffee with the college kids and talk. The thing is that I don't even know if I could talk to them. There are many things that I don't know or understand or haven't had experience with that people with such a large age difference would understand. Things that I do learn I frequently forget, and I don't have a lot of time or connections to make friends with these people. I'd be too shy and afraid to go and say hi to them. Even if I have things in common with them. Deep inside, I fear rejection. That's not all. Deep inside, I fear the world. I fear leaving the comfort zone I am so used to. And I'm afraid of failing. Even though I know I will. That's how people grow is by failing and trying things again. I'm not a risk taker. I don't like taking risks, or dealing with new situations. And I don't want to be alone.