Thursday, June 30, 2011

A Real Hell on Earth

Yeah, I'm literally in Allergy Hell right now. If someone were to take a picture of me, I would end up looking like Rudolph. And, that's not a pretty picture. I feel miserable too. My burning nose is itching like hell, and I've woken up to my eyes watering drips of liquid for the past 3 days. Despite the fact that I've also sneezed 6 times at least today already, I 'decided' that i wouldn't take any allergy pills. But at 5:25, I was screaming. I raced to the kitchen, opened the cupboard, and took out 2 Benadryls. I'll probably fall asleep at 9 tonight, but watev. Better than screaming all night long. Yup, well, that's my story. I also spent about 2 hours organizing passwords, and emails, and other random computer stuff to be able to do one certain thing. Other than that, that's my life. Imma Kinda typical geek here. Blast music, fix and set up online accounts, play computer games, and try to live without allergy medicine all at the same time, all day long. Welp, glad that's over with... well at least the fixing online account, and living without allergy medicine part... hehe


^^^my new computerized signature cause they haven't invented easy-access real computerized signature abilities. I'm waiting for them to have computer screens that you sign a doc. with a special pen to sign the blog post. ;)

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Bad Day

I had a bad day today. Not as though my image of a bad day is actually bad... well, tell me what you think...

I was forced out of bed this morning by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs (my alarm), and the fact that I had to go to the dentist to get fillings, and a cavity removed, and filled. It was... unpleasant. I got a shot in my mouth. That part wasn't so bad. I think the worst part was when they were filling the molar on the top of the same side they got a cavity out of the bottom. Well, my right jaw was all numb, and sore from the shot, and they were repeating over and over, "Open your mouth. Keep it open. It's very important that you keep your mouth open." I tried, I really did, but my jaw was so sore that that whole side of my face was sore through the numbness, and it hurt like hell to open my mouth enough for them to fill the top molar. It was miserable, and probably the longest 2 minutes it takes to fill a molar I have ever have had in my life. Anyway, luckily my one cavity was small, and took about 5 minutes to finish with. So yeah, glad that was over with, I went home, and went to math...homework...MATH...HOMEWORK.... in the SUMMERTIME, and it's not that I'm stupid either. I was offered entry to an honors class, so my parents signed me up... I sorta let them...sorta... But anyway, I come home to a thick packet of math homework that there are 4 parts to; 3 are required, part 1 is finished from a few days ago, and part 3 is probably as long as part 1 and 2 combined. I start part 2, and continue to work on it for about an hour and a half before taking a break to practice piano. I go straight back to it, and work on it for another half an hour. I take a break to eat food. I go back to work on it for another half an hour. I look at the clock and suddenly, it is 5:00. That's when I realize I'm on the 3rd page out of 4 pages of REALLY LONG PROBLEMS, and that I am exhausted. Yeah, I am NOT doing any more math today. I set a goal to finish part 2 today, and a goal earlier in the week to finish all my math HW before July. Now my goal is to finish all of it before July 4th.. Now, do you think I am likely to achieve ANY of my goals... hrm... no! Not to mention that yesterday an amazing plan to hang out with a life-long friend that I haven't seen in 2 years was canceled. I just can't take this misery!!!

Okay, I'm exaggerating.. I had no fun today, so it was the worst day of my life. I have really high standards for life as you can tell. To be realistic here. It was an okay day, I got SOME math done, and I'll probably watch some Dollhouse tonight with my dad. It is also possible that I will be able to reschedule a day this summer to see my old Bestie again. I hope it'll work out though. I also hope you had a more-fun day than I had.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Best Year Ever


The weekend of March 4th, 5th, and 6th was just the beginning of my 2011 adventure. Those were the days of the 2011 ECCC (Emerald City Comic Convention) This was the most special moment of my lifetime, why? I met Brent Spiner, Felicia Day, Amy Okuda, Nicholas Brendon, Clare Kramer, and James Marsters. I shook hands with all of them, hugged Felicia Day, and got a picture with James, Felicia, and Nicholas. It was amazing. It is not something I could ever forget. James was amazingly nice for a blonde, vampire bad-boy. He was a 'gentleman' as my dad called him. We all really liked them. They are really nice people, and I got signatures from Nicholas, James, and Felicia. I can't really describe how special all that was for me. I am in love with them. They are such amazing, talented people, who really inspire me, and make me confident. Thank you so much for being at ECCC in 2011. And thank you lord, for letting me go meet them. :)

On June 4th, 2011, when I thought that nothing better could possibly happen this year, my dad informed me that he had gotten a really good deal on a couple of tickets... A couple of U2 tickets. U2 Tickets for a concert at Quest Field on June 4th, 2011. I never in my dreams imagined that I'd ever go to a U2 concert, but I did. I remember at first the sun beamed in our faces, and the warm up band played down on a stage in the middle of the 'Field' with a colorful canopy over it. There was a round circle screen just underneath the canopy that showed the filming of the concert. Eventually the sun went down, and we were no longer blinded. It grew dark, and a light show began. At one point Bono was singing into a light-up-red steering wheel that hang from a cord. He would lean out into the standing audience that was right next to the stage. Dad said that they paid a fortune to stand there, but we had a great view. They played Vertigo, Magnificent, City of Blinding lights, I'm gonna go Crazy if I don't go Crazy tonight, and many many other songs. They ended with my favorite light show, a disco ball that shined rays of light so thick that I was sure people could see it from the street. During this, the finale, Bono sang, 'With or Without You'. It was so beautiful, I thought I was going to cry, and I almost did. Also, During 'City of Blinding Lights', the circular screen that was just underneath the canopy expanded, and lit up each individual square so that it was a long cylinder that looked like a City of Blinding lights, or a sky scraper with lit up windows. It was so cool, and at one point there were so many colors, and lights in every direction that I thought it was better than fireworks. It was spectacular. It was amazing, so I am very happy, and thankful because I had the best year, I have ever had before.

God bless you,


Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Love Life-6-7-11

Love Life

To be in love,
my heart is aching,
I was in love,
and now it's breaking.

Maybe I'm just needy,
I don't have a doubt.
I know that I'm not greedy,
clingy, is a different word.

Life isn't a fairytale,
love isn't a romance,
boys don't follow your trail,
some don't even dance.

When I was in love,
my reality was cloaked,
I wasted my time,
on an impossible hope.

And then, when I found its,
impervious wound,
He just ran away,
locked himself in a room.

No one seems to have cognizance,
he was just so 'mature'.
he understood 'everything',
but I'd known the truth.

Now he goes around lying,
says he never cared,
my care has been eternal,
my apprehension of the emotion,

Using a lie,
to encase an essential lesson,
for an abiding emotion,
is far from mature.

resulting, my independence,
strives forward, fast pace.
For a broken heart,
is mendable,
but a broken soul,
is forever.


Broken Heart-May Poem

Broken Heart

I gave you my heart,
I knew,
you could not take it.

I lived,
it became okay.

Now I blink,
another girl's heart was taken.
You only broke mine.

I am lost,
I was lost,
I thought I was found,
But I am lost.