Sunday, February 27, 2011

New lifestyle

Today I will share with you 3 of my most recent poems. These describe what I have been through recently. On about February 16th, I broke up with my boyfriend. I am single. On Valentines day, I realized that this was the right thing to do. These have been sad, harsh times for me lately, and yet I am still recovering. Life is getting better again.

In order....

Your Shoulder
~2/12/11~

When I'm feeling down,
I look at the sky,
I feel like falling.

If the clouds come out,
oh, the strong rush of rain,
everything seems away.

Rain falls,
in buckets of small,
like tears,
they race down the window.

Feeling all alone,
Independence is my punishment,
but my tears freeze my cheek.

I need your shoulder,
to lay my head,
your shoulder to dry my tears.

Not the howling wind,
nor the rush of rain,
could make me forget,
how I love your shoulder,
your arm,
your soul.

For my heart to mend,
from the impossible bruises,
the unknown scars,
and the impure blood,

for my tears to dry,
from sadness, unreasonable,
from causes, unknown,
I need your shoulder.

Gentle, we breathe,
the tears dried on my skin,
your heartbeat slowing,
my happiness growing,
gentle, you hold me.
This is my dream.


Destroyed
~2/15/11~

A new,
is born,
no heart destroyed.

A love,
forever,
no sob, no sob.

Forever,
don't break, my love,
forever,
no worries, my dear.

She is in love,
deep, true love,

Yet with who,
forever,
unknown,
will remain.

Though the heart breaks off,
another will reign.


Tears of Hope

~2/27/11~

Raindrops,
like tears,
fall down from the sky.

While clouds,
like hearts bleeding rain,
beat on by.

The hearts,
are cracked,
beyond possible repair.

They wait,
for the strength,
to move on.

The raindrops,
as tears,
prance down to the porch.

Waiting for the sun,
to sweep them away.

To dry the tears,
a warm hand awaits,

for the strength of independence,
to be bold,
to be strong,

and for this,
I shall wait,
all forever long.


Monday, February 14, 2011

Your Valentine Treat from me



Love

~9/24/10~
love are words,
love are thoughts,
love are sounds,
in abundance.

love is beauty,
love is sweet,
love is sharing,
love is a treat.

love is joyous,
love is song,
love is believing,
all day long.

love is beauty,
love is dream,
love is thoughtfulness,
love is lean.

Love is when you go out of your way,
sometimes only just to say,
I agree..

Happy Valentines Day Viewers!!!

New, Hard, important decision

Hey friends,

New me!! I can do this!! I can me me!! Whew, independent, new me!! I love you guys, thanks for the support! I'll tell you the decision officially when it's done.  But it is gonna be hard on people, but it is the right thing to do. :) LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Those pesky worst excuses ever!!

I blog, not vlog. Here are my really poor excuses:

  1. I don't have the time
  2. I don't have the energy
  3. I don't feel like it is so safe for me to be so expressive in action to anyone in the world who can see it.
  4. I am too pessimistic, and would never convince myself it is worth it.
  5. I would have to borrow my dad's camera.
  6. I don't have a good background to film at.
  7. I don't have enough time...right, I said that...
  8. I have a hard time acting like my entertaining self in front of a camera.

Those are my '8' dumb excuses. Thank you thank you thank you very much! (for listening)

bye!