Life. It is so unlike fiction. So unlike fantasy. In movies everything has a certain straight perfectness, even if it isn't perfect. Life, never has perfection. As a perfectionist, this makes things hard. Certain things aren't as perfect as you want. I still haven't told anyone.... I ruined everything. I thought of it all in a certain way. I could have tried again. I didn't. Maybe I was afraid to fail again. I wish I had the strength to do it the right way. The way I have dream about it being. Oh I wish.